Sunday, November 30, 2003
12:22 PM
Quote of the day:
" The brain feels what the heart feels" - from the movie Shallow Hal
Saturday, November 29, 2003
10:00 PM
my movie checklist:
1) matrix revolution
2) looney tunes
3) duplex
4) love actually
5) infernal affaris 3
6) lord of the rings
yup.. i've spend lots of money this holiday. and i still got like another month of holiday to go. wonderful. 1/4 of it goes to movies i guess.. the 1/4 goes to food. ok.. im such a pig. been trying to cut down on my excessive spendings. have been patronizing fast food restaurants these days. from macdonalds to kfc to burger god (that's what my classmates call burger king).. im really gonna die from some coronary disease.
it can get real boring during holidays. sigh.. i don't think i would be going for any 2 weeks europe tour or shopping at tokyo or having any white x'mas. im just waiting for sats to be over.. waiting for my 2nd brother and cousin to come home.. waiting for lord of the rings.. waiting for x'mas.. waiting for something exciting to happen. i just hope that something would happen that would make this holiday of mine different and special. im just waiting...
Friday, November 28, 2003
10:11 PM
i received a letter today. it says that im eligible for the Edusave Merit Bursary. but in actual fact, i don't qualify for it coz my monthly household income is not below $3000. crap.. so what's the point of congratulating me. ok that means i won't get anything from the government. stupid. i realised that i got all the Edusave awards before. the Edusave scolarship, the good progress award.. and this one.. the most useless one.. which gives no money. crap.
Thursday, November 27, 2003
10:27 PM
to my friends who's feeling pissed or depressed at this very moment
hey friends.. cheer up man =) this is just a passing phase. for those who's feeling sad, just wanna let you know that things may not be going smoothly for you now.. but this too shalt pass. try to look on the brighter side of life.
as for those who's feeling pissed now. cool it. try to take a step back and look at things from another angle. try to forgive whoever or whatever that irritated you. try putting yaself in their shoes. maybe you'll realised that not everyone or everything is against you. learn to forgive and forget.
well.. just hope that this entry would help make you all feel better. perhaps im in no position to say anything. nothing much encouraging to say.. just wanna let you know that no matter what happens.. your friend still loves you. =)
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
3:15 PM
INTER 1 ARSENAL 5
whoa.. this is the best european match arsenal has ever played. really. decided to buy the new paper today coz i know they sure has loads of crap to say about the match.. and this guy.. Tohari Paijian.. some local coach.. analysed the tactics used by arsene wenger. i was so impressed by his analysis. it's practically a case study of arsenal's football. if meiting had came for our arsenal camp... we would have just screamed our lungs out. hail henry the king man. *salutes*
went back to bed at 5.30am and it took me a while to get back in bed. i was calculating the points and i realised that i've under-estimated lokomotiv moscow. ok.. next champs league match.. arsenal vs L. moscow. we must win at highbury.
woke up at 8.30 to go to sch for training. i was dead tired. really. was out of breath after the 3 rounds of warm up. as usual got mocked by maria for my bounding. had no energy at all for the 6 X 100m striding. was really too tired to stride. frisbee was boring and tiring. i didn't even play much.. was tired from all the walking up and down on the field. didn't join them for soccer coz diyanah doesn't wanna play.. think if i played i would have broke someone's leg. went to practise some netball shooting instead. was quite fun. i think i only enjoy games played with round objects. only ball games.
soccer is definitely the best sport to watch now. esp when it's nearing x'mas.. the teams will just start to peak. this sunday.. chelsea vs man utd. exhilarating. i love this game =)
quote of the day:
"Life would be boring without competition." - by someone i truly admire
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
12:02 AM
there are some things in life which is beyond our control. such as we cannot choose the family that we are born into, our race and our nationality. there are just some things about our family that we are ashamed of, that we do not agree upon, yet there's nothing that we can do about it.
i don't like it when my relatives come to my house. the adults would just engage in their our activity and leave their kids by themselves. they do not care what they are doing.. as long as the kids do not disturb them. my cousins only come to my place to use my computer as well as jump on my house sofa. they eat whatever junk food that could possibly be found in my house and groan upon the fact that we don't have soft drinks.
i feel so restricted when they are around. i only got 2 tv sets at home. and they are downstairs watching it. the other set is in my dad's room. sigh.. can't watch tv. what the crap. and when they use the comp.. they really just hogged onto it and play their neopets... and whatever other exciting games. it's so weird that when i use the net.. i'll get dc but they don't despite the fact that they use it for hours.
sigh... they are still around. i just want some quiet time alone at home. crap. i realised that i love small groups. i love tranquility. i love peace. i love harmony.
Monday, November 24, 2003
5:46 PM
quote of the day:
"to the world, you may be just somebody. but to somebody, you may be the world."
Sunday, November 23, 2003
11:55 PM
Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
hee.. so cute. =) i think a lot of pple would think i'll get pooh but nah.. im kanga. anw.. i know nuts about kanga. haha.
Saturday, November 22, 2003
3:05 PM
crap.. im super bored. didn't go out with my bro coz i can't bear to leave my mum at home all by herself. great. now she's sleeping and im sitting in front of the comp blogging. how exciting.
it's so boring. there's no good movies now. crap.. waiting for all the good movies coming out. list of movies to catch:
1) matrix revolution (for the sake of completing the trilogy. yes i know im damn slow)
2) looney tunes (yes im childish. it's an open fact)
3) duplex
4) love actually
5) infernal affairs 3
6) lord of the rings
sigh... weekend tv sux big time. just waiting for the night where soccer starts! arsenal has 5 defensive players suspended. crap. and plenty of injuries. i wonder who would arsene wenger field today. whatever's the case.. i just hope arsenal wins and that man utd and chelsea lose. chelsea vs southampton. cool.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
6:42 PM
what's most important is to be true to yourself
im a person who is pretty strong about my principles. call me stubborn.. but i believe that one should always live by their conscience. you may be able to decieve the whole world, but not yourself. it takes 100 lies just to cover a SINGLE lie. and if we always tell the truth, we don't have to remember what we say. (as in you don't have to remember the story you invented) cos a lie will be exposed someday. somehow. only a fool would think their plan is foolproof.
sometimes we have to lie. sometimes we are made to lie. there's no one person in this world who has not lied before. (i believe so). there's always a reason behind something. as long as we know what we're doing and that we think we are doing the right thing, then our conscience is clear.
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
11:41 PM
quote of the day:
"it's better to regret something you did than something you didn't do."
the person who said this must be really wise.
3:28 PM
made my first grand appearance to holiday training today. crap.. thought it would be just running and games and games and more games. but today we had drills. ran 3 rounds.. and was almost out of breath. really unfit now. did the usual drills.. as usual i can't bound for nuts. maria tried teaching me.. but it takes practice to perfect it. oh ya.. made a new goal for myself.. to learn how to bound properly by x'mas. haha.
after that we did 6 x 100m striding. was supposed to just put in 60% effort only but stupid darren and maria just keep zooming past me. their 60% is like my 110%. gosh. played basketball after that. fun.
oh ya.. i went to sentosa yesterday. like finally after 7 years. haha. sat the monorail. so boring. thought it would be exciting. the beach was not bad. i think im the only person who goes to the beach and play dai dee while eating chips. haha. wanted to push paulus into the sea. but only managed to get him half wet. poor wx... was the first to kenna into the sea. haha. had dinner at pasta mania last night. wah.. my first time there. im like so swa koo. haha. celebrated miao's birthday after that. sweet 17 miao! ate the cake her friends gave her while she eat ours... hahaha.. im such a pig.
this holiday is like meant for me to catch up with pple. got 2 more gatherings =) looking forward to them! can't wait!! can't wait!! and i hope there is more to come =)
Monday, November 17, 2003
11:25 AM
monday morning
was being scared up from bed by my mum's horrendous piano playing at 8.55 am. still kinda sleepy.. wanted to like sleep my morning away.
have no plans for today yet. went to town for the past few days. quite boring. watch 2 not-really-impressive movies. uptown girls and le divorce. don't ask me why i watched them. i just did. fell asleep in le divorce for awhile.. and woke up to realise that some guy got killed. think im too tired from the movie marathon i had with my cuz for the past 2 days.
we watched:
1) uptown girls
2) serendipity
3) sweet home alabama
4) le divorce
if you realise... all the movies (or rather the first 3) movies requires no brains to watch it. it's just supposed to be for entertainment purposes. ok.. the after effects of watching not-really-impressive movies is still in me. think i shall avoid the cinemas for a while.
im still waiting for:
1) LORD OF THE RINGS
2) maybe looney tunes... hahaha
3) duplex.. just read about it.. ben stiller =) he rox
was contemplating if i should watch matrix rev to complete the trilogy. but the 2nd one just leave me in nightmares. complex plot.. exaggerating moves and costumes.. sigh.. i don't understand why my bro insists that its good.
i've yet to attend a holiday training. but it's at 4.30pm. so late. bad weather to train. sigh. should i go later? maybe i should just go to the gym with my mum or something. im getting obese. thinking of cutting my hair n do something to it.. but my mum doesn't allow me to go highlight it. crap.
Saturday, November 15, 2003
1:01 PM
i not really a music person. but i just love listening to R & B. esp blue and jay chou. listening to qing tian now. really love its tune. though R & B music usually sounds the same.. same pattern.. boring yet nice. =) just realised that qing tian has a really very sad lyric. =( so sad.. but it's pretty ironic.. a sad song with a nice tune. haha.
crap.. can no longer download MP3s. i think i'll just die. i never buy CDs. i never had a discman in my entire life. so what's the point ya? haha. i don't own a MP3 player either. so sad. napster and kazza used to be my best friend. i must try to discover a new way of listening music. haha.
Friday, November 14, 2003
11:56 PM
it can get really boring going to orchard sometimes. we tend to end up walking around aimlessly go pigging out. im really getting obese. this is bad. haha. we spend money on unneccessary things such as junk food and expensive drinks. there are no good movies these days. boring. the last movie i watch was intorlerable cruelty. even a movie fan like me has not been into the cinema for 2 weeks. this is bad.
the most infuriating part is that you tend to meet people who you do not wish to see. you have seen enough of them in school.. it just seems like everyone hangs out in town. what's worse is that you can walk from one end of orchard to the other and keep seeing the same person for like five times. the "exciting" part is when you see the same person around in town who took the same bus as you. freaky.
everytime when i go out with my cousin from vjc, we tend to avoid places that we'll see our schoolmates. i realised that the west side students like to go to town area whereas the east side students love to hang out at places like suntec, tampines mall, marine parade, bugis. (anywhere along the East-West line). as long as they don't have to change trains.
oh ya meiting.. let's have our arsenal stay over during the BIG match ok? exciting exciting.. i can't wait. =)
Thursday, November 13, 2003
11:18 PM
hey friends.. know some of you can't stand the power web music thing so i decided to take it down. haha. looks like not everyone appreciates matchbox 20.
anw... PW IS FINALLY OVER!! WELL DONE AC144. haha =)
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
10:11 PM
there's a chinese saying that goes "xi wang yue da, si wang yue zhong". for the benefit of those who do not understand, it means "the greater your hopes, the greater your disappointments". i think this phrase really makes a lot of sense, but only to a certain extend. (ex-history student la) grinz.
sometimes, despite the efforts and time we spend on sowing our seeds, we may not get the results we want. and at times when we anticipate for something.. the results obtained may be disappointing.
they when you don't expect anything to happen, the "thing" that you have been longing for appears in front of you. not only did you find it, you found happiness.
when you have nothing, you'll lose nothing. but when you find something, you gained more than just a thing. =)
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
11:10 PM
fate
-The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events.
-The inevitable events predestined by this force.
i believe that whatever will be will be. sumin once said "if you're fated with someone, you'll know the person some day". well.. i don't know. i never really believe in such things. there are just some things in life that cannot be explained.
4:28 PM
hope you guys like my blog music. trying to find jay chou's qing tian. but couldn't find it. wanted to make my blog relaxing and peaceful to read.. but can't find any soothing songs at the moment. haha. but this song's nice. =)
Monday, November 10, 2003
10:55 PM
suddenly i feel that blogging is scary. anyone can be reading this right now. i may not even know you. a stranger can just know so much about me just by reading my entries. this is freaky.
i stumbled upon this person's blog and fell for her trick. damn. now she has my email add and some weird stuffs. ok. i hope that she won't go track down who i am.. but it's really stupid of me to fall for that dumb old trick. ok.. as usual the dumb mich.
went to sch for nothing today. crap. didn't see the pple that i wanted to see.. crap. can't find the econs results thing that they were saying about.. in short.. a wasted trip to school. went to kap for brunch with my pw group. the nj and sa (i think) pple were just staring at us like as though they own kap. got a free cone.. haven't claimed it yet. got a free apple pie the other time. haha. went to sui's place to do pw. finally most of our stuffs are done =) yay!! stupid pw.. can't wait for op to end. wanted to have inter pw dinner with sumin's group.. but no one wants to go all the way to the far end of s'pore. haha. in the end we had pw dinner at coro.
my stomach feels really weird today. what did i eat? what is happening? crap. think i better go sleep early. ttfn.
Sunday, November 09, 2003
8:23 PM
My inner child is one year old!
Everything is new to me. I like watching the world
go by around me, and I don't sweat the small
stuff--or the large stuff, either. Just so long
as I stay warm and safe and dry, life's pretty
good.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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oh my gosh.. this is so embarrassing. haha. in fact i don't feel very good today.
10:19 AM
had pw yesterday until 10pm. pw is soooo tedious. i realised that how a simple thing can be made complicated by my group members. we have so much fun arguing, joking, playing and snacking around. haha. too bad liyee weren't here.
anw... arsenal won!! i think derby match is the most stressful game. coz neither team wants to lose. it's so embarrassing. and the game will usually lead to a fight.. and the results will usually end with a draw or some team winning it by a controversial penalty. oh well. yesterday was different. LJUNGBERG saved us. 3 cheers to freddie =)
the things that irritated me during the match:
1) my pw mate msged me immediately after tottenham scored to send her some stuffs
2) the stupid thing was 2000 over Kb
3) missed 30 mins of the match
4) Lauren can't do backpasses and conceded a goal
5) henry missed a one-on-one with keller
can't wait to go shopping again!! dying to buy this bag. think it's so so so nice. ok.. suddenly i missed watching movies. but there's nothing really great to watch now. matrix reloaded is crap. im contemplating if i should even complete the trilogy. hey pple!! let's go shop till we drop and watch movie ok?!?!!?
Saturday, November 08, 2003
12:32 AM
thoughts of the day
serendipities start off perfectly.. but i wonder if it will have the same brilliant ending. i realise that when you keep seeing a particular special person, you will soon develop a feeling for the person. you will start thinking of the person.. and start dreaming audaciously. then it will come a point when you stop seeing the person.. and soon... you realise that you no longer think of that person... the special feeling you once felt soon fades away. then one day... when you see the person again... you will just walk pass the person. your heart no longer skip a beat.. the butterflies in your stomach have disappeared. whether you will ever get to know the person... that would really have to depend on fate.
maybe that's the rationale behind the whole idea of serendipity.
Thursday, November 06, 2003
10:39 AM
woke up to watch arsenal vs dynamo kiev this morning. it's been quite some time since i last woke up at 3.30am to watch champs league. kai said she wanted to try waking up to watch a soccer match.. but i doubt she did. my dearest arsenal compatriot failed to wake up to.. and i watched the match ALL BY MYSELF.
was so sad when the scoreline was still at 0-0 at the 85th minute. saw the update that inter & L. moscow drew.. and i really wanted an Arsenal win. thanx goodness ashley cole saved us at the 88th mintue. i really admire King Henry. his slight header was SO VITAL.
what makes watching soccer in the middle of the night exciting is the sneaking in front of the television set to watch the match, trying not to wake up the whole family... the anxiousness in you for ya team to win.. the witness of a brilliant goal.. the suppression of ya celebration when there's a goal.. and the sharing of chips.
the best part is the next day when you go to sch. nevermind that we all look like pandas and could not stay awake during lessons. it's so exciting to go to sch n talk soccer. it's a pity that none of my class guys is crazy about soccer. lucky i still have meiting to celebrate with n venetia to poke fun of. oh ya.. and a sumin to tell which team to bet on.
i hope arsenal would qualify to the next stage of champs league. cheers meiting =)
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
5:00 PM
i went to sch today without realising that i had 4 free blocks. oh man.. just sat there at the void deck with kai till recess ends. got our college annual and was busy looking at all the cute guys.. and darting our eyes around the void deck. i bet everyone thinks we are some despo or something. haha.
yan'an came along with her deck of cards and we tried to teach kai how to play dai dee. man.. i promise you she is the slowest learner man. she doesn't even get the idea of the game. we gave up in the end. this teacher came and our cards was confiscated. he gave us 2 equally stupid choices.. either we walk 1 round the void deck with a card on our foreheads or stand up and shout out loud "i'm sorry" for 20 times. luckily the AD2 pple they saved us. we were made to buy their brownies and eat them. it was really tortourous. the brownie was so powdery and there's an EGG SHELL in mine. oh man. i felt so awful after that.
did nothing in sch today. slacked around and went to jelita delifrance for lunch with kai n sui. the soup was gross. something like fried onion or something. YUCK. im like eating all the disgusting things today. i feel victimised. haha.
serendipity
n : accidental sagacity; the faculty of making fortunate discoveries of things you were not looking for
this phenomenon is really keeping me thinking.
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
6:10 PM
today.. the 3 ACSI guys from my class gave the whole class a cookie each with our names written on them. that's really sweet. i ate 2 cookies in 2 days. opps. haha.
went for tuition today. this ac guy borrowed wanted to borrow coins from me. i only had 40 cents.. and he had a dollar coin and 10 cents. gave him everything and went to sit. he then came to sit opposite me and i told me that he's only taking one stop. oh man.. he could have just walked to the mrt station. haha. so cute. he's pretty friendly.. hmm.. don't remember seeing him in school before. anw.. did a good deed today =)
moral of the above 2 stories: "there are still nice ac guys around". haha.
it started pouring after tuition and i got no choice but to call a cab. stupid citycab put me on hold and i got so fed up. called the NTUC one instead. to my horror.. the cab fare cost $8.20. OH MY GOSH. i think i'll never call a cab anymore. he just happily added $3.20 to the original fare. oh man. i think im really being influenced by the ac culture. i never use to take cabs. i would usually just walk home in the rain or call for SOS from my family members. this is bad. no wonder the cabbies love ac pple.
Monday, November 03, 2003
6:43 PM
hey friends... thanx for all the comforting words and precious advices given. really grateful for that. =) like what paulus said.. i'll try not to be personal and ignore it. as the saying goes "this too shalt pass", all i hope for is that school ends soon.
anw.. today's training is PERFECT. the coach went back to china and we played netball and handball!! extremely fun!! me and wee kok came up with this "partnership" for handball.. haha.. but we didn't get to use our "brilliant" trick. sigh.. but we believe that someday we will be able to use it. haha. xavier is a pretty good goalkeeper.. but when the darren is the shooter... everyone just shivers. the both of them are so cute... haha.
lynsey gave me this big cookie today which wrote "i luv mich". she was asking me to eat it the whole day... yeah.. i felt quite dumb holding it in my hands the whole day. just ate it. so hungry after the games. can't wait for dinner to start. haha. thank you lynsey dear for the cookie. im gonna die of diabetes =)
special thanx to the following pple =)
-meiting
-sumin
-weixiong
-paulus
-diyanah
-nigel
-asilah
Saturday, November 01, 2003
6:08 PM
Reflections
i don't believe this. he called me fake and a bitch. why have things became so ulgy now? im more disappointed than angry with him. to think that i once took him as a good friend. what ever that caused him to say that... it must be all because of ME.
i dont blame wx for telling me the truth. neither do i blame him for calling me that. perhaps from his point of view.. im someone who he detests. after today.. i rest assure you that everything would be different. i will no longer talk to him.. and i hate the fact that we are SUPPOSED to work together. i will try my very best to avoid him.. n no longer look him in the eye.
i feel so dumb now. im so naive. im so simple- minded. i think i need to reflect on all the things that i've done this whole year. now 2 pple in class hate me.
"it's never an insult to be called what somebody thinks is a bad name. it just shows you how poor that person is, it doesn't hurt you." -- to kill a mockingbrid
