Saturday, July 14, 2007
2:04 PM
dont take me back to the start.
im dealing with a lot of complicated issues right now.. and mostly it's because i've made them complicated. there's no point in looking back and start regretting the paths that i've chosen. rather, i should start thinking about how i want to walk my life journey. assuming that i will live to 80, there's still 60 years left in front of me. and that is A LOT of time. right now i feel like im wasting every single minute of my life away, because i am just walking aimlessly down the path.
i know not what lies ahead of me, and i'm not sure if i'm prepared for any changes. im going to hit the crossroads very soon, but i dont know which path to choose. then again, im not sure if the paths have already been paved for me.
perhaps the expectations that i have for myself is too high for my standards. the most contradicting thing about myself is that i sub conciously hate my own guts. i detest mediocrity but i can only be that good. i am contented with what im blessed with but being too satisfied with myself has made me lose my aspirations.
the race against myself will never end. and i can never give up.
Friday, July 06, 2007
2:08 PM
ever since i passed a friend an url link of an online sales page, many seemed to start having the impression that i shop for bags online. the truth is.. i dont, and am very much an orchard road shopper. however, there are just some things that i secretly want such as a porsche 911 turbo coupe or cambriolet or that super gorgeous to-die-for hermes birkin. and these are probably the only things that i admire online. im not materialistic i just think that they are very pretty. anw.. its always good to just dream of owning these things, cos if i ever really do own them i would probably worry every single minute of my life whether i would scratch the car (or if some ah beng would) or how to maintain bag in its best condition.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
10:48 AM
my comp is currently over- filled with 2 years worth of photos, songs and documents and i finally decided to get them all sorted out since i still have some free time left before work starts next week. i have spent a good 3 whole hours organising my hotmail address book yday. people should just put their names in their email adds to prevent confusion, instead of using nicknames such as something boy or girl. it got pretty frustrating after a while.
right now im trying to upload my long overdue photos.. and its taking forever. i guess thats the punishment for procrastinating. anw.. i found out that the reason why we dont look like what we see in the mirror in photos at times is because images are not flipped when captured by cameras. ok im probably very very slow to only find out now but hey.. im not a physics student. so pardon me for the late enlightenment.
we select only pretty scenaries and beautiful moments to capture, keeping only the good memories while sub-conciously filtering out the bad and ugly.