Saturday, May 31, 2008
3:20 AM
carrot
im quite disappointed with my assessed essay. not that i have expected to ace to it, but i was hoping for something better, so that it can pull my total aggregate up, since im pretty much essay-challenged. sometimes i wonder why did i choose to do social science, when all along my strongest subjects in school were always math and chemistry. seems like interest itself is not exactly enough to help me do well.
anyhow, i'm done with the math modules, and 2 more to go. both essay-based. after getting the feedback form today i guess i should really work on strengthening the counter-side of my essay. i dont exactly think that my assessed essay was weak, just that they probably wanted much more. am quite irritated by the fact that i didnt use another topic taught in the course to compare against my essay topic, since i actually dismissed that idea when planning and thought that i should focused on the topic itself. but crap, they probably wanted me to demonstrate the fact that i understood the course and could apply the materials to compare against other topics, after all it's comparative and international social policy. argh.
oh well.. im not exactly very sure how i did today. cos i dont feel very confident about it. but i quite sure that my approaches to the questions are correct and that i have done everything i knew and could during the 3 hours, so im just keeping my fingers crossed. i dont know if its a confidence problem with me, and if others are probably feeling the same way as well, but heck i need to move on and concentrate on the rest.
these days i have been telling myself that i should be motivated by the carrot and not the fear of the stick. but i've been bitten (beaten) before and i dont want history to repeat itself. ay. am i not doing my best? or is my best really not good enough?
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Monday, May 26, 2008
4:51 PM
the philosophy of a loser
i used to think that jose mourinho was dictatorial. but i am starting to think that he is actually an effective leader and also a very interesting character. im not sure if his qualities are admirable, but i think i would want to work under someone like him one day. i think such people have the ability to bring out the best in others. i guess sometimes self-confidence and maybe a little bit of arrogance is the key ingredient to success.
Friday, May 23, 2008
6:47 AM
i got very frustrated with social policy today. was planning to do on transitional economies and social exclusion and close book for the subject till next week, but i realised that the readings for transitional economies doesnt help much. and the fact that i dont know much about EU policies and the ECE countries made it worse. and i decided to just do social exclusion as backup, and it sux because the readings are irritating me. i realised i should just go with the topics that i have already read, and ignore the rest. i know i need to go in-depth instead of broad, but how deep? argh. yeah i realised that im not exactly exam smart, and it sux. bah.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
5:13 PM
i love having my coffees and teas in a white mug, even though i know they will stain my cup if i left them sitting on the table for too long. i just love white tablewares, and the idea of being able to see what i am having. im werid.
have you had your daily dose of caffeine yet?
Friday, May 09, 2008
11:55 PM
this is definitely not spring
the weather today is a little too warm for my liking. there's little wind in the air and i think the tube is starting to stink. bah. and there are funny beetle-like insects flying around in the room whenever the windows are opened. and i've been having a headache since lunch. bah.